To Be Continued...2018
We're about 12 days into the new year and the new year is similar to the old year. I started the year with a glass filled with Apple cider and toasted with my son to the new year. We do this every year since he was old enough to figure out what New Years is all about. So, I interrupted his game online which I told him he could stay up late to play with his friend since it was a special occasion
and they were both up anyway with no signs of sleep in their minds. So, as I toasted the new year with my son and mom who surprised me was still awake I was trying to think of ways to make this year better and was so totally glad that last year was over. Last year was one of the more horrible years of my life.
So, I woke up the next day on January first and of course nothing had really changed. I was still in the same place physically and mentally for the most part and then I said to myself I have to start "living" more doing more things that I have been wanting to do since I was old enough to think about doing them. I got all pumped up just thinking about all the little things I wanted to do this year and when I say little I mean little like going to Disneyland and going to the snow and very little getting out of this city for the day. Now, my one problem is finding a way to do them. You would think getting out the city is easy to do and for most people it is and for me in the past it was. But, when you are a caretaker of a stubborn mom who refuses to go down steps on any given day and all the other people around you "work" then it is kind of hard to get past the porch. And even harder with no car but of course I can always find a ride if needed.
But, I am determined not to let the "gloomy" thoughts get to me and am going to find a way to do some things on my list. My list is not even a bucket list because it is too simple to be one and I don't believe in them cause you never know when that bucket will be kicked and I don't have time to be thinking about that. So, my list is my list and by the end of this year I am going to do at least 6 things on my list. The when and how's are yet to be determined.
So, I woke up the next day on January first and of course nothing had really changed. I was still in the same place physically and mentally for the most part and then I said to myself I have to start "living" more doing more things that I have been wanting to do since I was old enough to think about doing them. I got all pumped up just thinking about all the little things I wanted to do this year and when I say little I mean little like going to Disneyland and going to the snow and very little getting out of this city for the day. Now, my one problem is finding a way to do them. You would think getting out the city is easy to do and for most people it is and for me in the past it was. But, when you are a caretaker of a stubborn mom who refuses to go down steps on any given day and all the other people around you "work" then it is kind of hard to get past the porch. And even harder with no car but of course I can always find a ride if needed.
But, I am determined not to let the "gloomy" thoughts get to me and am going to find a way to do some things on my list. My list is not even a bucket list because it is too simple to be one and I don't believe in them cause you never know when that bucket will be kicked and I don't have time to be thinking about that. So, my list is my list and by the end of this year I am going to do at least 6 things on my list. The when and how's are yet to be determined.
Comments
Post a Comment