Tired and Tired
My sister was visiting yesterday and we were talking about the holidays coming up and her step daughters new baby. She said that she was coming over here for Thanksgiving unlike Thanksgiving's past when she spent it with her husband's family. She said that she was not interested in spending the day there with his mother and his family who weren't the most thankful people on the planet. Then she mentioned that her mother in law was 71 years old and tired. That got me to thinking about how old do you have to be to be "tired" and tired of what? So, I asked her what did she think that her mother in law was tired of. Was it life? Grandkids that seem to never leave sometimes? Taking care or and raising kids that didn't belong to her, as she puts it, or just plain tired of everything. My sister said she wasn't sure but she thinks it is a combination of everything. I agreed that is completely possible and probable. Then I started to think ;back to all the times I have yelled out or proclaimed that I was tired what did I really mean? Most times I just met that I was tired of being tired I guess. Tired of the daily grind which I had become accustomed to and new things I hadn't yet. Or I am tired physically of all the physical stuff I had to do during the day. Sometimes I just wake up tired with a feeling that I didn't get enough sleep which has happened more then I would have liked lately. I don't think that I hardly ever complained about this kind of tired when I was younger so I think that when you get older you just become more tired because of all the stuff life has a way of throwing at you. Before I had my son, at 40, I was the entergetic bunny so to say. I was working and going to school to learn new things to get a better job plus traveling over 40 miles twice a week to see my son's dad. I never was really tired back then. Now, a good ten years later I am tired.
My mom always says that she is too old and too tired. She's 77 but I have to agree with her being tired. She has practically raised 3 grandson's and living with almost 10 year old one now who is very active and very talkative, he gets that from his dad, all the talking, I am more quiet. I think. She's been through a lot just this year alone with broken bones, hospital visits and medications that we didn't even know exhisted that she now takes daily. Her house is gone and now she lives in a tiny cramped apartment with me and my son and I don't know how many square feet this place is but I do know that two people can't fit in the hallway at the same time and the bathroom is so small that the door hits the toilet and if you had a fall in there your best bet is to crawl to the door and bang for help cause if you are over 10 years old another person would not fit in there to help you without taking the door off the hinges. Believe me I know. I know that never did she invision living here with us in a small place at 77 recovering from major heath issues and not sitting outside in her own yard with someone grilling up some chicken and some jazz music playing in the background. That was the same vision almost that I had for her. So, when she says she is tired I have to agree.
I am 25 years younger then her and haven't been through all the stuff she has been through over the past year even and I know that I have no right to think I am as tired as she is but well, on some days I really do, right or wrong. Most days my plate is full and sometimes overflowing. But, there is nothing I can really do to lessen the plate right now short of winning the lottery, lol, So, I just hope that when I am 77 in about 25 more years I won't be as tired as my mom or my sister's mother in law. I hope that I will be enjoying a sunset and a sunrise in a nice backyard.
My mom always says that she is too old and too tired. She's 77 but I have to agree with her being tired. She has practically raised 3 grandson's and living with almost 10 year old one now who is very active and very talkative, he gets that from his dad, all the talking, I am more quiet. I think. She's been through a lot just this year alone with broken bones, hospital visits and medications that we didn't even know exhisted that she now takes daily. Her house is gone and now she lives in a tiny cramped apartment with me and my son and I don't know how many square feet this place is but I do know that two people can't fit in the hallway at the same time and the bathroom is so small that the door hits the toilet and if you had a fall in there your best bet is to crawl to the door and bang for help cause if you are over 10 years old another person would not fit in there to help you without taking the door off the hinges. Believe me I know. I know that never did she invision living here with us in a small place at 77 recovering from major heath issues and not sitting outside in her own yard with someone grilling up some chicken and some jazz music playing in the background. That was the same vision almost that I had for her. So, when she says she is tired I have to agree.
I am 25 years younger then her and haven't been through all the stuff she has been through over the past year even and I know that I have no right to think I am as tired as she is but well, on some days I really do, right or wrong. Most days my plate is full and sometimes overflowing. But, there is nothing I can really do to lessen the plate right now short of winning the lottery, lol, So, I just hope that when I am 77 in about 25 more years I won't be as tired as my mom or my sister's mother in law. I hope that I will be enjoying a sunset and a sunrise in a nice backyard.
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