Doing ME
It is a countdown to another year. Some people say that on your birthday is the day the year begins for you. Well, if that is the case my year will begin tomorrow. I will officially be another year older and hopefully wiser. I am not sure about the wiser part but I am completely sure about the older part.
I really don't feel any older then I did last year. I guess I am at the age where I am just trying to live and go through the rest of my days on this planet to the best of my ability and not trying to feel older or younger just trying to be me.
So, I ordered myself a lemon birthday cake and got myself a gift and I probably will not do too much else. No parties, no clicking glasses to toast myself, although that is a good idea, no people yelling "Surprise" when I walk through the door, no balloons flying across the room and no other gifts that are tangible will fill any corners of my room. To someone else it might sound boring and sad but to me it is not about all that stuff it is simply celebrating me, just me being alive to see another birthday.
I will be eating cake tomorrow and listening to all the noise that the neighborhood will bring and I know there will be noise from kids and adults alike and it being the holiday weekend I am more then prepared for this noise to last for the whole three days and fully expect the air to be filled with the smells of charcoal and grilled meats and whatever else. Yes, I miss a backyard and yes, if I had one I would be grilling too and probably having an old fashion boom box outside blasting some kind of music on it and jamming and cooking and playing in the sunshine with my kid and in between sipping on some homemade punch or lemonade or possibly a soda. And when the sun went down I would take the "party" inside and turn on a favorite movie and just chill.
Hopefully, I will be able to do all that and more before I turn another year or two older. Until then I will just enjoy where I am right now and do what I do. (as they say)
I really don't feel any older then I did last year. I guess I am at the age where I am just trying to live and go through the rest of my days on this planet to the best of my ability and not trying to feel older or younger just trying to be me.
So, I ordered myself a lemon birthday cake and got myself a gift and I probably will not do too much else. No parties, no clicking glasses to toast myself, although that is a good idea, no people yelling "Surprise" when I walk through the door, no balloons flying across the room and no other gifts that are tangible will fill any corners of my room. To someone else it might sound boring and sad but to me it is not about all that stuff it is simply celebrating me, just me being alive to see another birthday.
I will be eating cake tomorrow and listening to all the noise that the neighborhood will bring and I know there will be noise from kids and adults alike and it being the holiday weekend I am more then prepared for this noise to last for the whole three days and fully expect the air to be filled with the smells of charcoal and grilled meats and whatever else. Yes, I miss a backyard and yes, if I had one I would be grilling too and probably having an old fashion boom box outside blasting some kind of music on it and jamming and cooking and playing in the sunshine with my kid and in between sipping on some homemade punch or lemonade or possibly a soda. And when the sun went down I would take the "party" inside and turn on a favorite movie and just chill.
Hopefully, I will be able to do all that and more before I turn another year or two older. Until then I will just enjoy where I am right now and do what I do. (as they say)
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