unstoppable ME
Today I feel like a dog chasing its tail. I am just running, no not even running, like I am sleep walking in circles. I feel like I am getting nowhere with anything I am trying to accomplish. I have tried to keep a positive attitude. I have tried to say OK plan a-w is not working and pushing myself to plan x,y and z then starting over to a.
I have been apartment/house hunting for what seems like forever and a day. People keep telling me to leave it in Gods hands, God has got you, God will get you through everything, pray. I do believe in God but I don't know or understand why God has kind of been putting too much on my plates for me to even digest for years and years. I am like OK, I am as patient as almost anyone and believe me I know things can be so much worse. I have had worse and better. But, sometimes I just want to holler.
So, I make more calls, send more emails, talk to more people at the grocery store, the park, the corner store, post office everywhere. But, I am getting nowhere fast.
But, that's OK. I might be tired. I might want to open the door and holler ten times per day and I might want to just crawl back under the covets but I won't stop. I will never stop. I can't stop. I am unstoppable.
I have been apartment/house hunting for what seems like forever and a day. People keep telling me to leave it in Gods hands, God has got you, God will get you through everything, pray. I do believe in God but I don't know or understand why God has kind of been putting too much on my plates for me to even digest for years and years. I am like OK, I am as patient as almost anyone and believe me I know things can be so much worse. I have had worse and better. But, sometimes I just want to holler.
So, I make more calls, send more emails, talk to more people at the grocery store, the park, the corner store, post office everywhere. But, I am getting nowhere fast.
But, that's OK. I might be tired. I might want to open the door and holler ten times per day and I might want to just crawl back under the covets but I won't stop. I will never stop. I can't stop. I am unstoppable.
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