Happy Birthday To ME!

This is a day that comes around each year, same day and same time. I don't really mind it because there is nothing that I can do about it. I feel blessed about it though that I am still here on earth. Today, May 28th is my birthday. When I woke up this morning I was excited. I don't know why that was because I knew that today was going to be an ordinary day for the most part. The only thing different about it was going to be a cake. I knew that going into today. But, I felt joyful this morning for a couple of hours. I guess for those couple of hours I literally did nothing. I laid in bed on my new smaller mattress. I scaled down my bed since well, the size o the room and it just felt like something that had to be done and I really didn't mind it since it is enough room for me and since I don't sleep with anyone I am good. So, I was just lying there thinking about nothing too much just enjoying the quiet of the room while I could. It was the time of day when nobody was talking, nobody needed or wanted anything from me, no kids were outside bouncing balls, screaming, and yelling and running around just making a lot of noise, it was the time of day when even the crows were quiet that are usually crowing half the morning. No neighbors were empting garbage in the bin and slamming it down hard near my bedroom window and nobody was in the parking lot chattering about this and that or calling someone to the car or blowing for someone to hurry out of the house. No barking dogs or  screaming cats. It was just totally quiet. There was no TV's on in the house and for once all the noise in the living room was just some snoring from my nephew but closing the door drowned that out.

I kind of  thought about a dream I had many years ago when I was living somewhere else with someone else whom I probably shouldn't have ever lived with or dated but well, in our youth we all do dumb things. That was one of mine. But, anyway, in that dream it was the day before my birthday, when I had it and I was dreaming that when I woke up there was a table in the dinning room that was filled with balloons, gifts and a big cake that said Happy Birthday along with some birthday streamers around the house to decorate the house just for me. I guess I had that dream because that is something that I never got. I never woke up to anything close to that on my birthday. So, in the dream I walked into the living room and was smiling from ear to ear because I actually thought someone cared enough to so something special for me. Now don't get me wrong my grandmother always had a cake for me and a picnic in the backyard since it was always close to Memorial Day but it wasn't the same as in the dream when someone actually goes all out.  So, when I woke up the dream almost seemed real. I got out of bed and went into the living room and of course there was nothing there. And nobody home.

So, today, I was not expecting anything and decided to just pay it forward today and do something nice for someone else. And that is what I did for part of the day and the other part I ate cake and watched TV. Not that exciting but it is better then nothing and I am still here to see another day and another birthday. I even got to take a nap something I haven't done in too long.

Tomorrow is Memorial Day. A day for celebration and remembrance. I still will be having cake and probably ribs and all the sides.