Angels
One week ago yesterday my brother took his last breath in his room. I do believe that by the time we got to his room he was almost gone then and by the time the firemen came he was not with us anymore. So, basically his room has stayed almost as he left it. My nephew cleaned up a little bit but his clothes, bed, curtains, games, papers, pens and pencils and even his quarters lined up near the TV are still the way he left it. I still haven't gotten used to the fact that I will never hear his voice again or see him coming out of his room walking to the kitchen in the mornings making the kool aid and something for himself to eat. I haven't gotten used to hearing him in the early morning taking out the trash and sweeping the floor in the kitchen and never complaining about any of it. He just did it. So, I haven't really been in his room too much in the past week. I just can't get used to him not being in there anymore.
But, today my son asked me could he set up his game system in there. Both he and my brother had PSP3's and 4's. Although, they played different games at different times they had bonded over PlayStation and my brother would help my son set up his and troubleshoot when he had problems. I thought about it for a minute and then decided that he could. He said it is like a tribute to him in a way since they both liked playing games and they both were good at the games they played. My son Minecraft and my brother all the NBA games and MLB games. I know this because I used to order them for him from Amazon. He would make a list and I would order them and he would play them until the next game came out which he kept track of better then anyone.
So, when he got finished setting up his system in my brother's room I took a look. It looked cool and my son asked if he could put up a poster of the solar system later with all the stars because my brother is like a star looking down on all of us now.
It is fine with me. Now, we have one more star, or angle looking down and guiding us through this thing we call life and I know when our time comes to leave this earth they will be our guides then too. RIP all of our angles.
On a side note I am watching the Warrior parade on TV and it feels funny not to be watching it with my little brother this year. But, then again maybe he is watching it with me in spirit.
But, today my son asked me could he set up his game system in there. Both he and my brother had PSP3's and 4's. Although, they played different games at different times they had bonded over PlayStation and my brother would help my son set up his and troubleshoot when he had problems. I thought about it for a minute and then decided that he could. He said it is like a tribute to him in a way since they both liked playing games and they both were good at the games they played. My son Minecraft and my brother all the NBA games and MLB games. I know this because I used to order them for him from Amazon. He would make a list and I would order them and he would play them until the next game came out which he kept track of better then anyone.
So, when he got finished setting up his system in my brother's room I took a look. It looked cool and my son asked if he could put up a poster of the solar system later with all the stars because my brother is like a star looking down on all of us now.
It is fine with me. Now, we have one more star, or angle looking down and guiding us through this thing we call life and I know when our time comes to leave this earth they will be our guides then too. RIP all of our angles.
On a side note I am watching the Warrior parade on TV and it feels funny not to be watching it with my little brother this year. But, then again maybe he is watching it with me in spirit.
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