Holding on Tight!

If you would have told me about ten or twenty years ago some of the things I would be doing today I would have first rolled my eyes, laughed like crazy in your face, then rolled on the floor laughing because I would have thought that you would be completely and utterly out of your mind crazy. I had my life planned after all. In my fantasy mind I was going to finish college early so I would have plenty of time to figure out what I was going to do after I traveled to the places that I wanted to go, mainly Las Vegas. (OK, I was very young then ) I would get married to a hot young man with a good job, good credit, cause you need good credit to get anything that is what my grandmother told me, and of course a good career, not a "job" but a career, she told me that too. We were going to have 2 kids, one dog, one cat, and live in a nice 3 bedroom house with a pool in the backyard and tree house in the backyard too. A tree house because I always wanted one when I was a kid and thought how nice it would be to have it for my future kids. I was going to work too of course and we were all going to live happily ever after for the next 40 or 50 years. When the kids went to college more traveling and kicking back on the porch sipping spiked lemon aid  talking about the good old days. 

Well, of course all that didn't seem to happen. The only thing that did happen was I had one kid, finished college, and have OK credit. The stuff that did happen in between was far from this fantasy. I didn't get married, only engaged once and happy that I didn't go forward with that wedding, and I never brought that house with the tree house or the pool in the backyard. I never brought any house. If I could go back 10 years when I had the chance I would. Little did I know that I had inherited a house but as things often do in my life it all went so wrong it went sideways. My family has a way of making that happen. Not my close family but my extended family like one aunt in particilar. But, that is all water under a very long bridge now. I learned to let it go and move on. Little more I could do. 

So, fast forward to today and I am doing all the stuff that never in a million years I thought I would be doing and doing it in a two bedroom apartment in a so-so neighborhood. But, I am doing it and doing it well. Well, doing it as well as I can anyway. I guess what they say is true life just has a way of happening and you can't control most of it. So, I am going to just enjoy the rest of the ride and hang on tight.