Stuff on My Mind
For the psst couple of days I have had stuff on my mind. Just stuff. Nothing particular just stuff in general. I laid awake in bed at 3am just thinking of stuff. Stuff I should do, stuff I can do, stuff I should have done yesterday and 20 years ago, stuff I want to do, stuff I don't want to do, stuff people told me, stuff I should have listened to, stuff I listened to but shouldn't have, just stuff.
So, I tried to close my eyes tightly hoping this stuff would just go away. I tried to think of happy stuff. It didn't work. Once I flipped my pillow over to the cool side I just laid there. The stuff omy mind most on this early was moving stuff. I have been trying for months to find affordability in this "college" city market. All the ads I see all mention the word "student" or how close it is to the university. Just a short walk, bik ride, skateboard, roller skate or simply roll out of bed and go to class all this they brag for the affordable price of 5k move in. I don't know how rich students are today but when I was in college I barely had two dimes to rub together. Let alone thousands of dollars. So, I am beginning to think affordability and housing don't go together these days. But, the word greed comes to mind.
Well, I am hoping that in the very near future that stuff will be put to rest when I find a new place. Which brought my mind back to 30 years ago when I thought I had all the time in the world to buy a house. I was busy working, and going to school. I thought wrong. Time passed sooner then I had expected and life with all the twists and turns lead me here right now to this exact spot in this exact bed and in this room eyes wide open at 3am.
When I woke up later I knew I had to take a walk and just clear my head of all this stuff. I wanted to just walk outside on a brisk spring morning and not think of any stuff even if it was just for a moment. Just surrounded myself with other stuff. Stuff that was beautiful. As I walked I was not thinking about any stuff just breathed in the morning air and stopped to look at and smell the flowers.
So, I tried to close my eyes tightly hoping this stuff would just go away. I tried to think of happy stuff. It didn't work. Once I flipped my pillow over to the cool side I just laid there. The stuff omy mind most on this early was moving stuff. I have been trying for months to find affordability in this "college" city market. All the ads I see all mention the word "student" or how close it is to the university. Just a short walk, bik ride, skateboard, roller skate or simply roll out of bed and go to class all this they brag for the affordable price of 5k move in. I don't know how rich students are today but when I was in college I barely had two dimes to rub together. Let alone thousands of dollars. So, I am beginning to think affordability and housing don't go together these days. But, the word greed comes to mind.
Well, I am hoping that in the very near future that stuff will be put to rest when I find a new place. Which brought my mind back to 30 years ago when I thought I had all the time in the world to buy a house. I was busy working, and going to school. I thought wrong. Time passed sooner then I had expected and life with all the twists and turns lead me here right now to this exact spot in this exact bed and in this room eyes wide open at 3am.
When I woke up later I knew I had to take a walk and just clear my head of all this stuff. I wanted to just walk outside on a brisk spring morning and not think of any stuff even if it was just for a moment. Just surrounded myself with other stuff. Stuff that was beautiful. As I walked I was not thinking about any stuff just breathed in the morning air and stopped to look at and smell the flowers.
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