Dream of Forgiveness

I had a dream and in the dream I was telling someone off. The person in the dream was a person who had done a lot of things to me and my family especially my mom. But, my mom never really said anything to the person and sort of just took it, whatever the "it" she threw at her for years, most of her life. Then years later when the "it" hit the fan my mom really never got upset with the person she sort of just went with the flow of the "it" for the most part. Now, I am not sure if that was a good or bad thing. But, that is just the way it was. Once when the person did something that directly affected me my sister stuck up for me and my mom was not happy about that. My sister didn't care. She told the person in a respectful way but let her have it.

In my dream I told this person everything that I have wanted to say to her for the past 20 years or more. I was not respectful in the dream, but didn't use any bad words just told it like it was from my point of view. A point of view that my mom didn't want me to have. Out of respect for my mom I never really said too much to the person either. But, in the dream I did. I was all alone in a room with the person. She didn't say anything just stood and took all the words that were coming out of my mouth with a blank stare. Even in the dream I don't think that that she really got it. She didn't really get how she tried to make life miserable for my mom over the years and how my mom being the forgiving an laid back person she was instilled with values, family values, didn't make a fuss just let her continue to do whatever.

Now, this person has memory problems. I don't know if it is beginning dementia or something else. But, I know that the dream is going to be the best I can do to tell that person my feelings. And I felt so much better afterwards, so much like my mom, forgiving.

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